just wanted to tell everyone I’ve become a gym rat and have gone every day since Tuesday for at least one hour! Also, I am on day 3 of Insanity. I have about an hour and a half to do day 3 of Insanity and get ready for work but just wanted to share with everyone how I am back on track. Well, for working out at least… I don’t know why but I have been horrible about my eating habits! They are getting better though. Okay, time to go die with Shaun T on Insanity… xoxo

Why is it that I keep on losing weight in cycles or like a “yo-yo”. Why is it that eating cake once for a birthday party will send me into a spiral of not running and eating unhealthy for two or three days. HOW DO I BREAK THE CYCLE??? I want to be able to enjoy cake at my sisters’ and brothers’ birthday without feeling (too) guilty and still be able to continue on with my diet change and exercise afterwards. Anyone know the answer? Because I will be doing so well and BAM lose all my progress in two or three days. Ugh. I was planning on running but 1. I have NO motivation 2. I’m tired. I just started a second job 3. My stomach hurts so bad from eating unhealthily yesterday. I’m going to just use today as my “start eating healthy day and then exercise my heart out tomorrow”. Does anyone else do that? If you’ve been eating really unhealthy for a little while and then the next day you only focus on eating healthy instead of exercising? It makes me really motivated to exercise the day after that because I feel so refreshed. Okay just my thoughts for today. Leave me suggestions and such! xoxo M

I ran a straight mile today without stopping. I wasn’t even out of breath. I love that feeling. I just need to get my eating straight and I know the pounds will drop.

I had an epiphany today

I keep on setting these unrealistic goals, therefore not making them, getting upset, giving up for a couple of days, or just long enough to gain it all back and sometimes more, then starting again. I’m going to stop doing that. I’m going to live day by day and work at it. If I have a bad day, so be it. I will still keep on fighting. I will win this battle.

Just my thoughts for today. xoxo

I am currently at the highest I have ever been… 142. I’m ready to be back on track though. Two days ago I ran 2.16 miles straight. That is the most I have ever done in my whole entire life. It felt great. Today I ran a mile straight (still a big deal for me) in 10.5 minutes. I was planning on running 2.5 miles, but I work 31 hours this week and my feet have been killing me. Then I walked and ran another mile. I am in love with running though and I really want to start running the bridge in town. I actually ran in shorts today though. That is a HUGE deal for me. My confidence is growing! I am looking forward to my future and I know I can do this. I’m actually doing it for me for once. xoxo

I feel as though throughout the battle of losing weight I’m finding myself.

Update

Okay so I have been horrible about coming on and I realized just how helpful this could be so I am starting up again. I was doing so well. I was running every morning and actually looking forward to it… and then, well, I had one day waking up (I run in the mornings) and I was so tired, so I set my alarm for an hour later and slept instead of running. That’s when everything went down. One day. That’s all it took to pick back up my bad habits. I have been eating SO unhealthy. I feel sick all day so of course I don’t want to exercise. Tomorrow I’m getting back on my grind and working out. I think a Jillian 30 day shred work out will be perfect. I really want to get back into running because I absolutely loved it. Wish me luck! XOXO oh and I’m also going to be doing a food eating log so I can look back at it and try to pick healthier choices next time.

I am so sorry I haven’t been on. Things have been hectic with school, boyfriend - now exboyfriend, etc. I’m currently at 130.4 and have been eating really healthy lately and just enjoying life and what it brings me. I started doing some yoga and I have really come to enjoy it! I’m not very good and I don’t practice all that religiously, but I really love it and it makes me feel so good. I want to start doing a class, but for now I practice with Youtube videos. I’m not so sure how often I will on, but all I can say is is that being happy, hanging out with friends, and just basically enjoying life has helped me SO much. I really think this time is it because I’m actually enjoying working out, I’m enjoying eating healthy. And trust me, when you enjoy it it comes so much more naturally and you don’t even realize you’re losing weight until you look in the mirror.

That’s all for now. I’m going to go reblog a bunch of pictures to go get motivated now!

XOXO

35 pounds in 75 days

Ever seen the show “I used to be fat”? It’s on MTV and seriously motivates me so much. Check it out. I’m doing the same sort of thing. Giving myself a day I need to lose weight by and a certain amount I wish to lose. I’m not really big on being after a number, so as long as I end up healthy, happy, and confident I will be okay with any number. Today is my first day. I tried to wake up early but just couldn’t do it. So I let myself sleep a little longer and headed to school. I didn’t do an hour of working out like I hoped… It turned out to be around 10 minutes. That’s okay though because working out the first day is always hard. I usually give myself one day of eating well before hard core working out because otherwise I get really sick from working out with a stomach full of horrible food. Today is Tuesday and tomorrow I have powderpuff practice and Tae Kwon Do. So I won’t start the Jillian Michaels’ 30 day shred until Thursday. I also want to do couch to 5k so I’ll be starting that Friday. I am hoping to lose the weight in less than 75 days, but I want to do it healthily because after all this is a lifestyle change so however long it takes, it takes. Wish me luck. I’m off to my class. xoxo

Some goals I have:

finish couch to 5k and be able to run a 5k without stopping

middle split (I’m so close)

scorpion kick (this will take quite awhile)

straight legged scorpion

feel comfortable in clothing and bathing suits

rid myself from even wanting to eat processed food

TO BE HEALTHY